let the sunshine in.

"In the glad springtime when leaves were green,
O merrily the throstle sings!
I sought, amid the tangled sheen,
Love whom mine eyes had never seen,
O the glad dove has golden wings!

Between the blossoms red and white,
O merrily the throstle sings!
My love first came into my sight,
O perfect vision of delight,
O the glad dove has golden wings!

The yellow apples glowed like fire,
O merrily the throstle sings!
O Love too great for lip or lyre,
Blown rose of love and of desire,
O the glad dove has golden wings!

But now with snow the tree is grey,
Ah, sadly now the throstle sings!
My love is dead: ah! well-a-day,
See at her silent feet I lay
A dove with broken wings!
Ah, Love! ah, Love! that thou wert slain -
Fond Dove, fond Dove return again!"   ~ Oscar Wilde

I am so glad the sun has finally come back out and the temperature outside has gone up.  As much as I love watching the snow fall, and as pretty as it is when its glistening in the trees, everything starts to feel a little too cold and dark when it lasts for more than a couple of days.  Constant snow tends to depress me more than even the rain does.  At least when its raining, when you step outside it feels like everything is getting cleaned and renewed.  With snow everything is just getting engulfed and hidden.  Snow is just messy.  My car is splattered with specks of mud.  All my shoes are spotted.  The sidewalk is just a pile of slushy mayhem. I have a solo in The Taffetas that reminds me of how I feel during the winter.

"It was winter when you told me you were leavin'
I cried, I cried, I cried "Please, don't go"
Came the springtime with its love song so deceivin'
I cried, oh, how I cried, no one will know

Then the summer came and went with no word at all
I knew that it was over as the leaves began to fall

Wintertime, summertime, spring and fall, it's true
I'll always be crying over you."

I am really looking forward to the spring.  Days when I can take Sherlock to the dog park and he not come back covered in mud.  Days when I can find a park bench and read out in the sun.  Days when I can go for a hike in the woods and hear the birds serenading me and see sun shining through the trees.  I'm looking forward to the day when I can leave the house without piling on five layers of clothing.  Putting on two pairs of pants, a undershirt, a shirt, and a sweater, socks, boots, gloves, scarf, and coat is a lot of effort just to go outside to get the mail or take Sherlock out at 2am because he insists he can't hold it.  One thing that has really helped me keep my mood high this winter is getting ready for this play.  Getting to spend my evenings singing all these light-hearted songs, being forced to keep a constant smile on my face, and working with these wonderful women, and of course Michael, has really cheered me up.  Of course, we missed a few rehearsals due to the weather.  Those evenings just weren't all the much fun.  Felt like I couldn't get up and out.  Had to stay in the house and just sit around.   I did manage to read a couple of books over the last few weeks.  I always enjoy reading, no matter the weather.  I wish I was a more eloquently spoken person, because I'd try to get a job where I can read books or watch movies all day long and then review them.  I can't think of a more relaxing way to spend my days.  I guess I'd probably miss being around people after a while.  Now that winter is finally starting to wear off, I can't wait to do a little more traveling around.  Head to KC to see my brother and sister-in-law.  Maybe go over to St. Louis, haven't been there in a LONG time.  Might even visit somewhere I've never been before.  I anyone wants to join me, let me know.